I was partially in my own way. The rest of it was I think me still grieving, not that I'm over my mom passing away but I'm starting to cope with it better.
So this is me apologizing for my meltdowns and wanting to run away from everything and everyone. Not only apologizing to you but I need to apologize to myself. I kept everything bottled up inside, not allowing anyone in. It was the worst thing I could have done to myself. Luckily I have some pretty awesome people that tolerated me and loved me even if they didn't understand what I was going through.
I have learned so many things from life and this past year has been no exception. Now I am regrouping. Trying to figure out where my place is.
Hopefully y'all are still with me to see where my journey takes me <3